Despond

I always imagined the world as this big, giant, ball of rubber bands.. As if we all held a strand, that was as entangled as anothers, connected, brought together, quiet, but violent.. When one would leave this world, their band would snap and others would hurt. You could hear it across the world, the sound of every snap, every break.. Every heart..that broke. I always told myself, when it came to love- I wanted the sunflower that grew, not the rose that withered.. I always told myself, that, that is what I deserved. Little did I know my mind was a warning sign, my heart at a halt. It was only when I met him, did it stop.. I was l

I figured it all out in my head. Sitting alone in my room, just trying to pass the time. Yet smeared eyeliner and faded lipstick are the least of my worries, because I packed my suitcase and trashed this house, and im ready to leave it all behind. Oh family you mean so much, and I wont forget you after I decide, your name imprinted on the left right of my mind. Yet I wanna forget this life and take my head out of the clouds. I got this empty space where my heart should be, so ill let loose, and come what may, say goodbye to you, take a bottle of champagne, let life take me where the hell it says is fate.

Feel the fire in her eyes, the storm clouds in her heart, the heat of the moment that blows your mind. Im a road map with nothing but dead ends, constructions and improvisions on every lane. Yet every stop-sign just leads my way down the end of November, the freezing colf of December, but the sun wont fade, and I wont go away. Every tear-stained page of every thing ive written, every twist every turn to every thing ive ever listed, and now im just one foot up out of the ground, omy head up in the clouds, this burning hatred coming faster than the speed of sound. Now there is not anything left to these broken useless memories I keep locked a

She never knew she even had a chance, because the 'stupid' boy could never keep it in his pants. Yet she knew she couldnt trust him for all he was worth, she held the feelings in and kept her head down to Earth, yet she wanted a day to go bye she wasnt knee deep in the dirt. Yet the experience was fresh to her, like a virgin with a gently touch giving birth. She knew, one day she would have to hurt, but that being as it is only made it worse.