Bittersweet

I hate you.

You suffocate me, you make every day so damn hard to live. Honestly I wish you would go somewhere else, and get out of my life. You do this to me, like no one else.
Though lets be honest, I need you to breathe. You were the start and the end to me. It would be impossible to live a single day without you in it, and I could never handle you being gone. Though im so sick of you overall, what have I done wrong?
Just you being near me makes me want to pull you close, and slip a noose onto your neck. Though at the same time I would keep you close and never let you go. You make me go insane, I want you mine, but you bring me so much pain.
I guess thats the pain, being with you this way. Maybe the hardest part of loving, is being able to put the past beside you, and the anger behind you.

I love you.